About a week ago, when I got the idea to do a PRAYER SERIES, I was so excited! I had it all planned out – every blog I would write, scriptures and quotes about prayer that I would post on social media, and an idea for a prayer giveaway. It was all set and ready to go!
Until yesterday, when I began to question, “Who am I to write a PRAYER SERIES?”. My prayer life has been lacking! I’m not the woman who sits in her prayer closet for countless hours like the old lady from War Room. I’m not filling up pages in my prayer journal with thanksgivings and psalms to the Lord. I’m not the woman who wakes up at 4AM to begin her day in prayer.
I’m the woman who hits the snooze button 3 times and calculates the minutes of sleep she has left until she really has to get up! And because I’m that woman, I’m the woman who sends up rushed prayers while stuck in traffic on the way to work. I’m the woman who maybe writes in her prayer journal once or twice a week. I’m the woman who prays about the big things, like last week when I was in the hospital getting a blood transfusion or a new job opportunity. But I’m not the woman who stays on her knees praying about ALL things!
I’m the woman who needs to improve her prayer life. And I’m that woman full of excuses for why she doesn’t pray enough (and trust me, they’re NOT great excuses!).
I make lots of excuses, but the excuses I make the most often are these 3:
- I have a long to-do list. I hardly ever sit still. If I’m not working as a teacher, I’m writing, I’m running around my apartment cooking and cleaning, I’m grocery shopping, I’m watching TV – I’m finding every excuse in the world to NOT sit still. We all know the story of Martha and Mary. Well, I’m Martha! In Luke 10, Jesus visits the home of Martha. While Martha was distracted by the preparations that had to be made, Mary chose to sit at Jesus’ feet. And according to Jesus, Mary chose what was better! While I may feel that my to-do list is long and it all needs to get done, it doesn’t! The better thing would be put my to-do list to the side and sit at Jesus’ feet.
- I struggle to find the words to pray. Sometimes, I’m flooded with so many emotions, I’m not sure which one to express. And sometimes, I’m afraid to express those emotions because they’re not pretty. I could be angry, upset, heartbroken, or even jealous and those are not easy emotions to admit. But I have to remember that God is not put off by my emotions. He understands that I am not perfect and that I don’t have it all together all the time. He loves and cares for me, even when I’m at my worst. And just like a good Father, He wants to know what’s going on in my world and wants to help me.
- I only pray about the BIG things, not ALL things. Like I said, I will pray about the seemingly bigger things in my life – being in the hospital and a new job opportunity. I pray for those so called bigger things because they seem so out of my control. I don’t pray for the things I feel I have control over or those seemingly smaller things I think I can handle on my own. And the reality is, there’s nothing that I can control. I always need God no matter how big or small the situation may seem. I need Him to be apart of ALL things!
So there’s the hard truth – I’m the woman who needs to improve her prayer life. I’m the woman who needs to stop making excuses and just start praying! And maybe this month, through this series, I’ll become that woman!
What excuses do you have when it comes to prayer? Comment below.
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